Spiritual Journey

1988 (9 y.o.): The Dark Night of the Soul

I had a very dark experience in my early childhood; the thought of nothing existing after we have completed our physical life on earth. I cried every night for an entire week, and every time I closed my eyes, as my mind would be overwhelmed with the traumatic concept of “nothingness.” I can still clearly recall the sight of complete darkness all around me and the terrifying echoed thought of: “For ever, and ever, and ever, forever, nothingness.”

The Dark Night of the Soul is an experience most of us will have to face at least once in our lifetime, and some might even experience it several times. Each experience can last as briefly as a couple of days, to several weeks, months, or even years. The Dark Night of the Soul strips us of all light and spiritual understanding, and leaves us in darkness, alone, to face our fears and our inner demons. God evokes this powerful experience within, and though it is extremely terrifying and traumatizing, its true purpose serves as a cleanse for our physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual bodies; God purifies us so that we may rise to a higher state of consciousness.

“The darkness and the other evils of which the soul is conscious when this Divine light strikes it are not darkness or evils caused by this light, but pertain to the soul itself, and the light illumines it so that it may see them.”

-St. John of the Cross, Dark Night of the Soul.

I woke with an angel by my side after experiencing the Dark Night of the Soul, and as the angel lowered a sphere of Divine Light upon my head, my mind filled with Divine knowledge. These angelic experiences have continued regularly throughout my life—except during a fifteen-year dark chapter—and the Divine knowledge received has now become the foundation of my spiritual understanding: the collective consciousness, the ego, the soul, the universe, life and death, light and darkness, and God.

1997 (18 y.o.): First Guided Meditation Session

As I woke on a hot summer day, I was guided by an angel to remain lying on my back, relaxed, and focused on my breathing. My body then became as light as a feather as bubbles of Divine light seemed to form all around me; it felt like I had started to levitate.

1997 (18 y.o.): A Dark Path

As I walked home one night, I started sensing something eerie, I slowed my pace and then came to a stop as fear overwhelmed me; there he stood, waiting for me, a dark shadow. At that very moment, I sensed all the light in my life fade away, and a very dark chapter began. The following fifteen years of my life were spent in darkness; they were filled with fears, disturbing thoughts, depression, anxiety, horrific visions, and countless hauntings, but I now understand that this dark chapter was inevitable as my spiritual growth required all the experiences that took place.

2005 (26 y.o.): Musical Milestone

On December 15, 2005, my band One Away and I performed as the opening act for Bon Jovi in our hometown Montreal; I had reached my very first musical milestone and my dream of being a rock star truly seemed to be manifesting.

2008 (29 y.o.): The Crossroad

I reached a crossroad in 2008 as my bandmates and I were in a studio completing the recording of our first full-length album. The dark shadow appeared before me as I woke one morning, and materialized in physical form—he was tall, muscular, wearing what seemed like a black cape, his skin was silky black, his eyes were black with hues of red, he had black horns with tiny red veins, and his aura was simply terrifying. He took me on a “ride.”

I was sitting in a rollercoaster cart and as I looked below, I saw what seemed like my future: fame, fortune, women, pleasure; I was living my dream! I was overwhelmed with excitement, but as the ride came to an end and I turned to look behind me, I was traumatized to see my family and my wife’s family sitting behind me in terror; I was ashamed. He then made me sit and watch them burn, and as they vanished in smoke, he waited for an answer, for me to make a choice—I will never forget getting off that cart and running as far away as I could.

In the following weeks, I started receiving several Divine callings urging me to return on the spiritual path that was laid before me as a child; I knew the time had come to leave the band—giving up on my dream was the most painful decision I ever had to make.

2009 (30 y.o.): Bible Study

The darkness became overwhelming; I had to find the light once more. My wife bought me a Bible and I spent the next following years studying it.

2010 (31 y.o.): An Oath of Righteousness

I made an oath with God to live in righteousness with the fear of God; I had shaven my head, given up on alcohol, and would spend my mornings giving alms to the homeless as I would drive to work.

“For almsgiving delivers from death and keeps you from going into the darkness.”

-Tobit 4.10, NRSV.

2011 (32 y.o.): The Seal of Temptation

An angel of God appeared before me in the Scotland Highlands as I woke on an early morning on June 17, 2011 (Culnacnoc, Isle of Skye, Scotland). I could not get a glimpse of his face as he stood before me, several feet taller and as bright as the sun. I noticed an open bleeding wound running diagonally down his left pectoral—a great contrast between his bright pink wound and his bright-shinning figure. He placed his thumb and index finger over his wound and gently sealed the wound as he moved down his pectoral. He whispered: “The Seal of Temptation.”

After several meditation and contemplation sessions, I was finally able to catch a glimpse of the angel’s face; I was staring at myself, but I was not in my current physical appearance, it was the perfected version of me, I was staring at my Divine soul.

“When an individual completely enters the mystery of prophecy, he suddenly sees his own image standing before him. He becomes totally unaware of his own essence, as if it were concealed from him. Then he sees his own image standing before him, speaking to him and telling him of the future. It is regarding this mystery that our sages say, ‘Great is the power of the prophets, since they liken a form to its Creator.’”

-Rabbi Abraham Abulafia, The Rose of Mysteries.

2012 (33 y.o.): Return of the Light

“The Seal of Temptation” and the valuable lessons learnt from the Bible empowered me to face and overcome my fears, my inner demons, and the dark shadow.

2013 (34 y.o.): Emotional Breakdown

I have never spoken about my spiritual journey to anyone; suppressing these experiences led to an emotional breakdown; this breakdown also led me to break my oath of righteousness as I had lost my physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual balance.

2014 (35 y.o.): Breaking My Silence

I started speaking about my spiritual journey to my wife.

2014 (35 y.o.): The Other Side

I had been off from work for a month and was slowly recovering from my emotional breakdown; I was still struggling with dizziness, nausea, chills, and slight panic attacks. I had thought a warm bath with Epson salt, lavender oil, and baking soda would have helped me cope with the symptoms, but as soon as I laid back in the water, I slipped into a deep and peaceful sleep—I slipped a little too far on the other side.

I opened my eyes and saw myself below; I was lying in the bath resting peacefully under the water. Several angels were surrounding me, and I started sensing their disappointment—I am not sure if they were disappointed because I had failed them, or because they had failed me. I blacked out. When I regained my consciousness and opened my eyes, I was back in the bathtub, under the water. I still sensed their presence around me, within me, and within my first breath as I gasped for air; they had brought me back to life as I had not completed my purpose.

2014 (35 y.o.): My First Tarot Deck

Frustration started setting in as all my spiritual experiences have always occurred randomly; I could have never requested a certain experience or communication to occur. I then received an unexpected gift in the mail after winning an online contest from a website that I had purchased crystals from; I had received my very first Tarot deck: The Guardian Angel Tarot Cards by Doreen Virtue and Radleigh Valentine. At first, I had no interest in Tarot, but as the weeks passed, the angel revealed how Tarot was sent to me as a tool to communicate with the spiritual realm, at will!

2015 (36 y.o.): A New Light

A bright star appeared above me on June 9, 2015, which remained until July 5, 2021; a star which forever resides in Heaven above, was my personal source of Divine light and love which I called upon at any given moment to cleanse or recharge a crystal, dissipate negativity, or complete any other task that required Divine light and love.

2017 (38 y.o.): Breaking the Misconceptions of Tarot

I received guidance from the angel to not only start speaking out about my spiritual journey, but also host a festival to help break the misconceptions of Tarot and promote it as a tool for personal development, spiritual growth, and enlightenment—which I manifested in September 2018 and September 2019: The Light and Love Tarot Reading Festival.

2018 (39 y.o.): Spiritual Closet

I finally stepped out of the “Spiritual Closet” and started speaking out publicly about my spiritual journey; it had been a great secret which I had kept from almost everyone.

2018 (39 y.o.): The Kabbalah (the Tree of Life)

After spending over a year getting lost in patterns, numbers, and trying to figure out the missing link of Papus’ Septenary concept, I experienced the destructive Divine energy of the sixteenth Major Arcana Tarot card: XVI The Tower; the angel requested that I discard everything I had worked on, and explained that if I were to successfully map out human relationships, I would have had to put Papus’ Septenary concept aside as it was given to him for his own personal growth and understanding. I was then shown the map that lies hidden within all human relationships: The Kabbalah (The Tree of Life).

2019 (40 y.o.): Channeling My Higher Self

While channeling my higher self on November 28, 2019, I experienced the realm of the sixth dimension; the realm where everything is connected, and everything is Divine light and love. I was then shown the oath that I had taken prior to incarnating on the physical realm, an oath which binds me to God, to help all rise to higher states of consciousness.

2020 (41 y.o.): Mother Mary and Jesus

I woke on February 8, 2020, at 2:30am with Mother Mary sitting by my side holding my hand; we were waiting for Jesus to arrive. As he arrived, he looked at me and with three simple words, gave me all the clarity and guidance I required to complete my journey.

2020 (41 y.o.): Published My Book

Raising Our State of Consciousness to Fulfill Our Soul’s Growth
Tarot is greatly misunderstood and mostly associated with divination, but its true purpose moves far beyond the realm of fortune telling; it is a powerful tool that can be used for personal development, gaining wisdom and understanding, and raising our state of consciousness. Tarot can also help restore and maintain our physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual balance.

This book holds a collection of personal experiences, Divine knowledge received from my personal guide and spiritual mentor, and spiritual growth exercises that will set you on your path to fulfill your soul’s growth. It also includes enlightening exercises as working with the letters of the Hebrew alphabet to manifest positive changes within and working with the Kabbalah (The Tree of Life) to understand and improve human relationships.

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2021 (42 y.o.): A New Light

The bright star that appeared above me on June 9, 2015, has now manifested within me on July 5, 2021.